My little space

博客來書店最近辦了個活動，配合最近上市的新書「失物之書」的宣傳
－寫一封信，給12歲時的自己。

恰好，今年的我要在8月時進入第二個12歲了。
在這個時後，寫一封信給12年前的我，是再好不過了。

12歲的我，剛要從美國回來，英文比中文好。
所以，24歲的我，只得用著現在不怎麼好的英文，試著跟12歲的我溝通。

12歲的我應該會覺得24歲的我怎麼這麼沒長進，英文怎麼這麼爛吧  XD" 

其實我也不知該說什麼給我12歲的我，只得挑些看來是芝麻蒜皮的小事。
一方面也因為不想透露太多給她，人生還是得自已細細品嘗體驗才好。
另一方面是因為回想起來，12歲的我可能還比現在的我體貼成熟多了，是個少年老成的孩子。
然後…XD  年齡成長了，但心智年齡一直沒什麼變化。現在實際年齡早已超越心智年齡了…
現在的我，要給什麼建議給她，還真不知該怎麼下筆 XD"


Dear little Vivian,

Don't be surprised when you receive this letter from future, I know it sounds chaostic, but it happened. 

I am 12 years older than you now. You might be wondering how was you/I in age of 24... 
It seem an age of very far away, right?  
Those characters that up to their 20s in mangas are always so mature. Do I look like or act like them? 
At least... I think I am still a 12 year old child in heart, though the enviroment around me had changed, different people come and go around me, and sometimes I lost something but gain others. I dare not to say I am a mature person but I am sure that I have not lost the innocence child deep in the heart.  
You can figure it out by yourself when you come up to this age.

I won't tell you too much of your future, my past and present. 
Only some of the key periods of "this year"that I think I need to remind/foretell you in briefly. 
Many things will happen to you in year, 1995,  they will effect your thoughts and behaviors till future.  

Hold tight to this special year, because this is your last year as a child. 
After this year, everything will change so fast.
You'll feel a little lonely it seems that the world had left you behind. But dear, don't be. Just keep in mind that there are always people who loved you to back you up, whether they are your family or friends, even people you don't know very well.

First you will be tasting the bitterness of departing and the happiness of reunion in a very short time.
 
You are now in one of the most important events in your life. You and your family were preparing for leaving from Florida, where you have stayed for three years and be back to Taiwan at August.  Your parents were busy packing up and loading the boxes onto the truck. You and your younger brothers were also helping doing the packages and cleaning the dormitory.

In your small body you are quite nervous of coming back to homecountry and very upset of leaving  the U.S. because you had finally geting used to the life-style here and time is up to go back, then you had to start to getting use to life in Taiwan all over afain. Most of all, you had always want to remain here for further studying. On the other hand, in your little head you have wondered and wondered many things, how will you remain contact with Hwan-Hee and Megumi in South Korea and Japan, did the old friends in the old school had forgotten you or not, and how will the school and life be back in Taiwan, since you had had a three years of splendid school life in the U.S.  
But you did not show these thought  to your father and mother, because you think you are the eldest child in the three, ought not to make any more troubles during the chaos. You hid them and acted as if everything is fine.

Well, Everything did go fine. I can tell you that you need not to worry too much about it. And you will thank your parents in heart that they insist to take you back from the U.S. in near future. 
You may not believe what I said, but it is true.   

You will keep in touch with Hwan-Hee and Megumi till senior high school. But due to my laziness and busy studying, i have lost track of them now. I hope you can avoid this...it is not easy to make such a friendship for this long. 

You will find the old friend since two-years old was eagerly waiting for you since the day she know you are coming back. and when you arrived at home, she will be first to visit you.

In fact you will also have a wonderful schoolife in Taiwan, except for junior high school. 
But you don't need to worry too much of it, too, you'll find how to express the pressure in a very safe way.

You'll be back to Wufeng Elementary, where you left three years ago. You'll meet the best teacher ever, Ms. Chian, she is very passionate person as an elementary school teacher. Talk to her more during the recess, you'll learn much of positive attitude toward life from her. 

Several classmates were the old classmates you knew back in first and second grade, they will recognize you as you introduce yourself on the stage. They will welcome you back heartily, and easily, soon you will feel everything will be going well. :)  

Some of the students in the same grade in different classes heard about you, were curious of you. They will always ask you to "perform" speaking English fluently. Don't be shy that they will see you as a alien when you say English. Coz now I am kind of regret that I did not use the chance as practicing.    

Please, take more attention on your two little brothers this year. They will be in great difficulties coz they had never did get used to and had more suffering under the education system in Taiwan.  Talk to them more and provide suggestions or guide them in order to know what they really want.

Yes~  indeed, this year will be one of the most fascinate year of your life. Not only in school but also your personal life. This is a year that I often recall in the memory.
Therefore, I am not going to tell you more about how fascinating, in order to let you find out the surprises.

Hmmm.....okay....just one~ :D
The boy who lived in the same neighborhood, who you like since kindergarten still went to the same Elementary. You will have much chances to walk home with him during this schoolyear. Just keep the thing natural. 

I don't worry too much about how will you going to be, because you are me, and I know you are a kid with awful nice characteristics and right judgements. Too good that sometimes you dare not to take risks and miss the chances. It is not true to say that I don't regret to miss those chances, but I hope you can be more advanturous, and embrace the life more when you grow up. For I am heading the target myself now. 
But, I believe your mind, so, I will not involve your decision. 

Remeber that your family and friends always love and support you, always be happy and everyday will be a lovely day. 

               With love, 
                               Vivian in the age of 24